...but I'm finally feeling kinda homesick....

Last night, I made rice, a veggie dish, and a meat dish for dinner. I had my rice in a small ricebowl, and i had the dishes in two separate dishes like we normally have communal dishes at home. I had dinner by myself. I was really sad. It was rare even at home that I ever ate in that style with no one else.

This evening, my dad called, and said that my parents and 2 of their friends went to Detroit to do some shopping, and were gonna pass London on the way back, so they were gonna stop by for dinner. We went to WonderSushi, which as usual, was quite good. My stomach is still full. :) And I had ice cream. Nothing to complain about. Though we were raised to not speak much during dinner (because my dad wanted to watch the news), I like the company of eating with other ppl. It's less lonely. I've felt lonely lately. :( My roomie whom i'm not even that close with, hasn't been home much for the past week, and I'm not gonna ask why, because I can guess, and I don't agree with what he's doing, so I'm not gonna ask or anything. So no one's home, which I don't mind at all, I can make all the noise I want. But when I'm around people, ie: classmates/friends, I get annoyed with them, so I actualy don't want to be in their company anyway. I think my hate for boys is affecting my friendships :^) Since most of my friends for the summer are male due to summer school in Comp Sci courses. It's hard to have any female friends. So I miss my female roomies.

I just miss all my friends in Mississauga. I miss all my girls. I miss my Second Cup family. I miss my highschool lunch crew. I miss everyone that isn't in London right now.

I've been feeling down lately. I won't lie. I want to go home. I feel terrible, but my male buddies are really pissing me off just for being male. Mississauga is where my safe haven is, where I don't have to worry about seeing ppl that I really don't want to. It's familiar. I've always liked familiar. Things here aren't familiar anymore. Situations aren't familiar. People aren't familiar. Routines aren't familiar. :(

And I have no one to talk to...not that I really actually did much talking... But no one just to sit around and be stupidly innocent with. lol....

Been doing some thinking lately.... I dislike society. I dislike how the human race is. I am bitter. very bitter. I miss childhood.