whoa, weird, first time ever having a Sam Roberts song in my head...lol..it was playing on the radio this morning when I got out of the shower....
so anyway, apparently, this is the month (or time of year) that everyone seems to be having problems...oy! Obviously, I'm not gonna share with everyone else, but I'll briefly discuss mine.
I half broke up with Mike on Thursday night...half because I was saying the words (kind of), but it was really clear that it wasn't what I wanted to do. I didn't know what I wanted. He told me to msn him my final decision when I got back to my apt, cause he knew it was too hard for me to say things in person. So, a day later of crying and thinking and such, I decided to at least try to be friends, and we went out for dinner (as friends). We had a good time, but I miss (and i could tell he missed it too) the close playfulness we had before. So, the final decision is that we're gonna "casual date". We both know we can't handle a serious relationship or anything like that right now; personal issues on both sides. But we definately want to stay friends, but we'll still have fun when/if we see each other. We'll see each other if we have time, but don't expect to see each other often. So hopefully, feelings don't get too involved because of this situation, and the official breakup at the end of April will be less harsh.
But, while I talked to some of my roomates last night, I wonder, if I'm taking the easy way out, by staying WITH him (sort of). Because, I'm avoiding all the emotional turmoil that I already felt on the Thursday before I really decided anything. I dunno. sometimes, I feel like I'm entering a fwb relationship, but, if there's feelings on both parties, it isn't fwb, is it? I have no clue. *shrug*
There's a phrase I read somewhere...I can't remember if it's a quote from Winston Churchill or Martin Luther King...I THINK it was Churchill, but I'm not sure....it went something like this:
"If you find yourself going through hell, keep going."
I suppose, it's either that, or you kill yourself. So, the moral of the story is, things will get better; you just have to get through the bad stuff first. It will take some time, but you'll get through it. We'll all get through it; together, we can conquer it all. lol. maybe some ice cream or something will make it easier ;)
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