[b]Tuesday, 30 December 2003[/b]
Black Eyed Peas - "Where is the Love"
A friend's uncle passed away the other day...
So here's my little rant about death
It's hard to see someone suffering from something, hoping that maybe, somehow, they will pull through. It's even harder to not see it happen. It's happened to me on a few occasions, and there were occasions where I didn't see it happen, but the death just made another hole in my heart. I'm really scared that it's going to happen again, and I'm not going to be here to go to the funeral. But I've never been fond of those anyway... The last few that I've been to, I had learned so much more about the person than I had ever known. And it just hurt me so much to have realised how even more amazing they were. It hurt me even more to think that such a wonderful person died but I'm still here.
When my grandmother (dad's mom) died, I wasn't expecting it. I thought she was getting better. The last time I saw her was at the hospital. I think it was like, a Wednesday or something. My last words to her was, see you next week (in Chinese). She died a few days later. I did see her next week, but when I said it, I obviously meant to see her alive, not in a coffin.
Whenever I see the video for Good Charlotte's "Hold On", I can't help but crying, especially when one of the women comment on her son saying "have fun at grandma's, see you on Monday", and that she'd be waiting for Monday forever.
I was washing dishes today, and I was thinking about my death (yeah, creepy and random, but whatever). I was thinking, does it REALLY matter if I "live life to the fullest"? I'm not religious, I don't realy believe in an afterlife or whatever, so when I pass away, does it really matter whether or not I've experienced the joys of life? Does it matter? and if not, does it really matter at what age I die at? The longer I live, the more I will likely suffer, right? To see the world crumble and fall apart, to see the people wreck what could've been a good planet? Why? Why would you want to live longer? Does it matter how or how long you live life?
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Savage Garden - "Truly Madly Deeply"
Karen was supposed to come visit me in sauga today, but her mom didn't let her cause the weather wasn't really good, and she'd be driving herself, cause Chris was working and Jody had to watch her sister...so yeah.....awww....in a way, it's good, cause we were supposed to go to S1 to shop.....and yeah.....I am not exaggerating when I say I have no $$.....well, I don't have it in my possesion anyway...cause Hong, my sister, mom, and dad all owe me money....but no one's paid me back yet.....grr...I have to ask my mom for the money now...I hate asking for money...but I have to pay my bills...and I can't really pay them until I get some cash......SO......yeah........
so tomorrow is basically my last day to really do anything...which sucks, cause I spent all my other days wasting away.....just watching tv...agh...i watched TV ALL day today, it was just BAD...from 10:30am until now basically......8pm...YIKES....I could've done so much.....like do my business reading or reviewing some Econ...agh...but, I did call my eye doctor, only to find out that they're closed until Jan. 6...SO...I think i have to go to my sister's workplace...but it's on downtown...like, if i get a ride down there, that means I have to bus back, or stay for an entire day...ugh...and like, tomorrow would be the only day i could do that! cause I'm working thurs., fri and sat...ugh...OR, i could just wait until i'm back in london, but I don't wanna go find an optometrist! grr....I think it would be a hassle...MAYBE I could jsut not go for another 4 months...hmm...i really should though...and get my glasses fixed anyway...hmm...
anyway, dinner calls
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[b]Monday, 29 December 2003[/b]
"Stare at the Sun" - Thrice
Just a random song that was playing in Second Cup (Mavis/Eglinton) when I went to fetch Amy tonight...lol...I was driving Logan home and Amy felt sick so I dropped her off there before I dropped off Logan....so yeah, went back to get her and then left, and then like, on the way back to her house (after stopping at mine to get her tupperware) I had to drive faster cause she felt sick again...was gonna stop off at the gas station, but ddin't think they had a washroom, so took a detour (cause I had already turned right)...but yeah...
So today, Logan, Amy, Catherine came over to my place to play some cards...hehe, it was fun! But too bad Katrina and Carol couldn't make it (and Hong was in California) ... it was still lotsa fun though...hehe, we played signal (Logan and Amy won...grr), 4-way speed (aww, everyone except Cat won), and seven (omg, SO evil...lol...I won the first game, but lost the second game....hmph...they were all trying to bring be down...took them like, 4 rounds before they were successful...hahaha!!! funny thing was, Cat and Amy weren't THAT far behind me! only like, 11/10 points behind!! lol...cause I was counting the points for amy, and I was like, omg, 83?? I'm at 90! you're not THAT far behind! haHA! so yeah, final scores were, Cat-94 Amy-95 Me-105 and Logan 60 something I think...lol...and it was his first time playing...weird...cause Carol and I learned the game at CP in gr 12! lol, I guess Speed was just "the game" whenever Logan and I were to play cards together...heh). And then afterwards, we went to Boston Pizza for dinner...omg, I ate SO much, like, I think that's why I'm so damn sleepy right now...but yeah, I had a soup with bread and then a pizza...omg...and I had so much double hit popcorn while we played cards....omg...so glad I didn't wear jeans today...lol...
ooh, I'm not sure exactly when the last time i wrote in here last (bad thing about these blog things, you can't scroll down in your code to see what you wrote last, like what I did when I was just updating my webpage), but I cut my hair on Monday...and my mom cut it about an inch shorter than I wanted because she said it didn't look good at the length...and then the next day, she was like, it should be about an inch longer...and i'm like, that's what I wanted!!! GRRR.....but yeah, I'm starting to get used to it now, but unfortunately, I have to take morning showers now, because I just don't sleep well if I wash my hair at night, cause I'm worried I'm gonna have bedhead in the morning...grr...and like, just wetting my hair doesn't help...and even more unfortunately, I have to work this thursday (new years day), friday, and saturday morning...(6:30, 7, 6:30 respectively), so like, I'm gonna have to take my showers at night because one, I'm not getting up that damn early to take a shower, and two, I really don't wanna smell coffee when I fall asleep...so yeah...grr...anyway
Yesterday, we (mom, dad, me) went to my godparent's place for get together...kind of a housewarming thing too I guess, cause they just recently moved there (it's a really nice and big house! like, it has 4 floors, and it's really nice...but yeah anyway) so yeah, like, we went straight from my work (which makes me angry cause the plan was for me to drive home after work and then we go to the place from there, but my dad came and took the car and just came to pick me up afterwards...grr....I've come to the conclusion that driving calms me...or something...cause like, i jsut need that alone time in the car to relax and to get out of work mode or something...I dunno...but like, I was so angry in the car...cause like, I was gonna go home and change out of my nasty work shoes and get my MD player and my book for ACS so I would have something to do in the car and if it got too boring, I could occupy myself somehow, but nope! I couldn't, because ppl always like to change plans on me...grr...I don't like spontenaiety...I hate it...I really do...grr... but anyway, we got there, and like, there were NO kids there! like, I expected at least Kenson (my god brother, he's 16 days older than me) to be there, but I didn't even see him around! I was like, on the verge of freaking out, cause the adults all had mah jong tables set up (they ended up having 3 set up on the main floor), and I didn't have anything to occupy myself with! and like, MJ takes FOREVER to finish! so yeah...I called Karen to see if she was free, maybe I could go hang with her for a few hours...but she was working til 1....but I thought that maybe I could still see her for like, an hour... but yeah...didnt' happen cause she was still at work when I called her at 1:20am...and we were gonna leave soon anyway...but yeah....anyway, Kenson WAS there, he was apparently sleeping...lol...at like, 5pm...but anyway...we talked about school for a bit...random stuff...and then like, i dunno, stuff happened, and somehow, I ended up having to pick up his grandparents house to bring them over there...so like, him and I were in the car, (I actaully didn't know we were picking up his grandparents at the time...I just knew I was driving cause Kenson didn't have his license yet), wondering how we were gonna spend the next 7ish hours, cause our parents and their friends always spent forEVER playing MJ and chatting and stuff...yeah, we thought 2 other ppl were gonna come (one of them was 2nd year at waterloo and the other...um...prolly like, starting highschool or somethign? no idea....haven't seen them in ages, but it's sad, cause tehy live like, 2 streets away from us...oopsy...) but they didn't end up coming....and yeah....meh, we just decided to watch movies..lol...we watched 3 in a row...it was crazy...the first one was Shaolin something.. (this comedy in chinese with eng. subtitles, with "chow sing chi"....haha...and it was like, soccer and martial arts ...it was pretty good...haha....it was hiarious too...I cried....hehe) and then we watched Bad Boys (yikes, there were 3 kids who showed up alittle later, and they watched it too, and it was so bad cause there was SO much swearing in it, and like, I think the oldest girl of the 3 sisters couldn't be more than 14/15...but her mom was there...meh...), and then we finished off with The One (grr, I got SO confused in it...I liked the music, but I swear, movies aren't supposed to make you think so much! hmph...I think I should jsut stick to comedies...they're so much funnier...like, even if they do make you think alittle, they make you laugh alot too! hehe, so it's alright! but yeah, we watched until 12:30 I think...(we started at like, I dunno, 7ish?8ish? I don't remember)...and then we went downstairs...and watched CSI....it was alright....I can see how ppl can watch it so much...but I think I will still only stick to "Friends" throughout first year uni...hmm...second year, I will just have to watch all of the 9th season...cause I missed most of them cause I had piano at that time..grr...but anyway
shoot, what was I talking about again?....right, I was talking about watching CSI...um...yeah...I think that was about it...oh yeah, my godmother was like, omg, u look like u shrank or something! and i'm just like, what???how's that possible?!?! I thought I was supposed to grow!!! aww....but yeah....my mom thinks it's the hair...and then they're all convinced that I lost weight...but I really didn't...haha, I'm trying to convince myself that I lost fat and gained muscle mass...(cause I gained about 5 pounds in the past 4 months)...but I really don't think I did...I think it was just cause I was wearing mostly black... but yeah...
I feel like I have more to tell, but I can't think of much right now.......like, I'm sure I CAN go on, but my fingers are cold (this room is overall cold) and I wanted to sleep an hour ago (I know it's only midnight, but I'm really sleepy for some reason....I think it's the full stomach...)....and...yeah...I've just typed alot...so I'll type more later...but i have work tomorrow 3-7 cause steph asked me to cmoe in for her cause she's sick...aww...she wanted em to close, but i didn't want to close, so she got her bro to close...so it's all good...as long as i get a ride to/from work...yup, g'nite
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[b]Tuesday, 23 December 2003[/b]
"Last Christmas"
no particular reason why that song is in my head...maybe cause it was playing in the car at some point...and it's just in my head right now...
for lunch today (yesterday...I dunno, Monay), my mom and I and my aunt went to some chinese dim sum place, and like, we were sharing tables with 3 other people, 2 girls that were friends, and then this random old guy (wel, not SUPER old, like, 50s i guess), and it was really funny, cause the two girls were like, not chinese, they looked flip, and they were SO funny...omg...they were cool though, they made me laugh...cause one of them, if someone asked if they ordered something (in chiense), she'd say "si"...and it was SO funny...one time, she said "oui"...omg...they were hilarious, they were so carefree...but yeah...and like, near the end, they were talking to us and the other guy, and like, the girl was saying how the guy got his food so much earlier than theirs, and it was prolly cause he was a guy..and like, next time, tehy were gonna share a table with that guy again, just so they get their food...lol...it was hilarious...omg...but yeah...i guess u had to be there...but anyway, the girls left (they were late for work), my aunt left (she had a client), and my mom and the guy talked about stuff (how boring life is in mississauga, comparing kids and stuff...just random) for like, a while...and it was crazy, cause like, yeah...i dunno...but yeah, they talked for a long while...maybe not an hour...but prolly like, half an hour...that's a long time!! but the guy looked semi familair...apparenly he has one daughter, thatn's 21, and goes to UTM for sociology...but yeah...anyway...
I cut my hair when I got home...and it's SO short...I almost cried several times...and every time i feel the base of my neck, i get angry, cause my mom used the rasor thing and she shaved the little hairs there cause otherwise it looked "messy"...grr...now I look AND feel, AND sound like a boy...(MANdy)...grrr....not happy about it...but hey, it was for Angel Hair, they make wigs for less fortunate kids that lose their hair in accidents or through cancer treatments etc....but yeah....
then i had to go to the dentist later to get my very first cavity fixed....sigh...so sad that i have a cavity...but it was apparently really small...so like, it was easy to fix...but yeah....my dentist asked me if i wanted tooth coloured or silver filling, and like, i thought he was joking, cause why would anyone want silver if they had the choice between the two? I dunno...
Hong, Carol and I went to William's Pub House (is that what it's called? or is it just William's Pub?) after Hong got off work (lol, we picked her up from work, and i was driving, and she was supposed to tell me how to get there, but we missed the intersectino cause she was telling a story...about what? I cannot remember right now), and omg, we each got our separate orders, but Hong's came super late, so like, Carol was bugging me to share something else with her, and like, we finally decided to split a waffle between the three of us...so yeah...man, when I got home, I looked like i was pregnant or something, my stomach was HUGE...but ANYWAY...yeah, we exchanged x-mas gifts...but i still have yet to get Carol's x-mas gift! well, she got the inflatable tree, cause i had it in the back seat, and she was sitting there, and she opened the bag and was like, omg, what is that? and then she was like, oh, nm...and she put it back, and i was like, oh...that was actually part of your gift, and she was like, omg, really???? I actaully wanted to get one! it's so cool! ... hehe, so yeah...she liked that part of teh gift...she just wanted a bigger onet hough..s.he was like, why didnt' u get the bigger one?? and i'm like, cause there wasn't a bigger one!!! lol, and she's like, why not? and i'm like, i dunnO!!!! but yeah...it was funny..
Carol got me this orange/canteloup scented body lotion from fruits and passions (smells really really good) and a GC poster and the cool fake earring cuff thingy thing from claires that i said i wanted....it was cool, i like my gift lots...i just need a spot for my GC poster...hmm, if i get an LP poster, i think i'll put up the blink poster too then....hehe...so it won't be AS awkward...lol...in the midst of all the pooh bear and other cute stuff in the room, there will be a blink/GC/LP poster...lol...but anyway...I'm actualy quite satisfied with what I got Hong, I think she likes it...2 thigns she specifically said she wanted, and the other stuff meant something...it wasn't totally random...lol...but yeah...anyway...she got the the awesomest gift ever, concert tickets to LP!!! lol..did I already say that? well...yeah...she also got me socks, which is good, cause I had to get some anyway...I'll prolly get some more anyway...cause seriosuly, i don't know where 2 of my socks went, like, i prolly left then int eh washer/dryer or soemthing...or dropped it somewhere between my room and the washer/dryer...sigh...anyway...yup....I had a good time tonight...good waffles, good times, good night.
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[b]Saturday, 20 December 2003[/b]
3 Doors Down - "Here Without You"
omg, I just remembered (I dunno, I was watching TV or something, and it just came to me), he's left handed...yup, random fact. Did I also ever mention that he seems to like red and orange? well, orange definately, the red could've been coincidence, because his bedspread was red, and he was wearing a red shirt that day I visited him...heh...yup, so it was alotta red....but I'm SURE he likes orange...ANYWAY....yup...he really is on my mind ALL the time....omg...it's crazy....I'm not sure if it's healthy....sigh...
So it's my b-day today, but like, it really could be the 21st...who knows...11:59pm...that's pretty sketchy...but yeah...um...yeah....not much to say about it....not right now anyway....ppl came over for x-mas...it was alright....they liked my cookies...I agree, they tasted better today than yesterday when they were fresh...LOL...hehe....yup...that's about it for now...but Kalen's back from her trip, she said she has an interesting story....and yeah, we should get together sometime....maybe I'll make a trip to Toronto? we'll see....
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[b]Thursday, 18 December 2003[/b]
Just woke up from phone call from work...no song yet...
Ugh, I just got my work schedule for the next week...ew....now I regret going to work...such a crappy schedule...
Sunday 21st : 3pm-close
Friday 26th : 7:30am - 4pm
Satuday 27th : open - 3pm
YUCK...7:30am? 6:30am? yea right!!! grrr.....I should've told him that I didn't have the car until 9am!!! grrr....oh well....I hope I can handle 8 hours of work after not working for so long! and get this, on Sunday, I have to work with Tyrone!!! NOO!!!! I think that will be a very very LONG shift...painful too...SIGH...oh well, what can I do...I wonder if I work the same hours the week after, or if I'm only working one week...hmmm....wait, the week after would have to be different, because the times I have the car is different...hmmm...hehe, I wonder if I should wear the "coffee agent in training" name tag instead of the "certified coffee agent", since they have so much new stuff...OMG, I jsut remembered a dream I had last night, where it as my first day back, and it was REALLY REALYL REALLY bad, like, I think I was just getting someone coffee or soemthing or other, but like, at the register, I just kept on punching in the wrong item, and like, I charged it wrong, and made a void and stuff...man...it was just really really really superly bad....so scared that's gonna happen on sunday...yikes, if it does, i'll never hear the end of it from tyrone....SIGH....anyway, I'm gonna go brush my teeth and eat now...maybe clean the house? I need to do something productive today...i was supposed to clean the turtles yesterday, but i forgot, I wonder if my sister did it? meh...they're prolly dirty again anyway...winter, they shed alot this season I think...or is that summer? hmm...
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[b]Wednesday, 17 December 2003[/b]
Song: Mariah Carey - "All I Want For Christmas"
so where did I leave off? (please refer to previous entry before you read this one)
So I called Mike while I was packing, but he wasn't there. So I packed some more, and I called him again after 20ish minutes (cause I figured he was prolly eating dinner)....and he picked up, and I REALLY don't know WHY I don't ask "How are you", but seriously, I don' tknow!! ahh!! I just asked him how his exam went, what he thought of it...and we just discussed it for alittle bit...and I somehow said how I'm getting a ride to Mississauga with my roomate, and he was like, oh, you're from mississauga? Do you know a guy named Dave R___? (yeah, I didn't catch the rest of it...)He's a friend of his on AL, his floor, and I'm like, yeah, he's actualy my friend's cousin! I thoguht he was on 8L though! lol, that explains why i never saw him at floor meetings....so yeah, it was cool....and then that was that I think....then I told him that I just wanted to wish him a happy holiday, and hope he enjoys the break...I think we said something between there, it might've been the whole discussing if i knew dave...but yeah, then it ended with him saying happy holidays...and me saying, i'll see you later, bye...
so yea....I just hope he decides to touch his MSN and decide to add me to his list...but he prolly won't....unless....but i dunno...I meant to say have a safe trip too, and ask him what he was taking next term, but i forgot...as usual...grr...i'm slowly gettnig there though, at least i DID ask him about MSN....sigh....and I know he really really likes hockey and computer games...lol
Oh yeah, so I'm back in Mississauga now...don't have lots to say...except that parents are already getting annoying...they're like, don't go to bed too late! and my dad was readin my MSN conversations! it was SO bad! cause i was in a chat converston thing with: Dave S, Chris M, Owen W, Kelly D (some random girl in gr 11 at Cawthra), Crystal, Carol, and Drew and Courtney (but they weren't talking). And they would casually throw in swear words, and my dad would be RIGHT THERE and I was just like, shit!! so i'd randomly start typnig msgs to try to clear that msg off the screen...lol...but yeah, it was an interesting chat...cause they were randomly talking about stuff, i think half the converstaino was making fun of asians and jsut being racist overall, but jokingly....lol....it was just random and funny....and confusing....cause i was talking to Steph and Cat and Hong too, and i was just like, i can't chat, case i'm chatting to like, 4 other people! it's crazy! yeah...
on the ride home with Nach, I was listneing to my music, and I spent most of the ride thinking about him...sigh....I think i'm gonna really miss him...even though we'd not see each other or speak to each other for a week...but that's a week, compared to 2.75ish weeks!! sighsigh....I just keep thinking how nice it would be if we were "together" or whatever, we have things in common, we have stuff to talk about....I just have to learn how to ask how he is!! cause I wanna know! I'm jus tnot used to asking that question! or I don't know how to ask it, cause i don't like how people all use the same phrase!! sighsigh...it's either, how are you, what's up, how's it going...I need to come up with something different! lol....so yeah....like, i dunno...he just says things, and the way he says them sounds so sincere....:) I feel special....I'm gonna miss him...I really hope we have the same CS class (or at least lab) together....I wonder if he's taking calc or algebra next sem.? and his other elective? hmm...
Oh! note to self, I need to look into CS and MIT as a program....cause i really really really hate economics...and if i hate it so much, i don't study it, and therefore do bad in it...sigh...
My sister can't believe I wanna do CS...oh well....it's the only thing I really care about right now...everything else seems to be backbenched when it comes to hw and stuff....
one more thing, I think i'm gonna use the "title" of the entries as the song thing...be it a song in my head, the song i'm listening to, or just a song i relate to, or a song i wanna hear....guess what category this song falls into...
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[b]Tuesday, 16 December 2003[/b]
Exams are done for 2003. Can't say it ended well though. Last night was terrible. I was so anxious and nervous and full of bad energy, it was just bad. I kept on shaking my leg (lol, Hong) and my hand was starting to shake and it was just all bad. And to top it all off, at like, I dunno, around 3am ish i guess? i could be totally wrong, but Megan was over, and we were all just talking (me, her and nach) and then Nach went to go refill the brita, but like, it took her flippin forever, me and megan were just thinking of reasons why she wasn't back yet, like, she drowned int he filter...lol...yeah, but then we started to smell something burning, so i went into the hall, and nach was there with the filter (not filled yet), and then she went to get Mike DON, but he wasn't there....Jeff burnt the popcorn. OY....he was alittle drunk, and put the popcorn in for 6 minutes and left it there for the full 6 minutes...omg, so crazy...but yeah, a bunch of us were just talking in the hall then....holding the door open to air out the floor, cause it was filled with smoke and we were scared the fire alarms were gonna go off....but yeah, and then when i went back to the room, i smelt my hair, it smelt burnt...grr....but yeah, I tried to study some more after that, I had to stand to try to stop from shaking....sigh....it was just bad...I ended up going to bed just before 5:30am (thank goodness for afternoon exams at 2pm) ... but yeah...
Actaully, earlier that night, I had called comp sci Mike about the practice exam, to see if I could compare answeres with him, cause the sample solutions posted online wasn't written in java, just in algorithm...so yeah....but i called him at 10ish, and he said he JUST started to look it....oy...he was apparently watching DVDs on the banded brothers or something of that sort....i dunno, something on HBO? but yeah, so yeah....I told him to give me a call when he did it, and he asked if i was gonna be up late, and i said prolly around 4am i will sleep....but i was scared to leave the room for a shower cause i didn't want him to call and think i'm sleeping!!! but yeah...he called at 1:40 and we tried to explain to each other what we wrote and stuff, but it was difficult on the phone, and my original plan was to go over to his room to compare the answers, but I guess it was late....but anyway, yeah, I asked him something about a specific question (which wasn't on the exam by the way) and he said he'd call me back or e-mail me back when he figured out how to explain it....lol....but yeah, he called me within 5 min. and said he didnt' know what to write in an email, hence the call...but yeah...then I asked if he had MSN or ICQ so it's easier to just chat online than phone and say the codes....and he was like, ...I do....but I don't have it here.....and I'm just confused now...but yeah, he has it back on his computer at home in Montreal (7.5 hour train ride) and he doesn't use it much, so that's why he doesn't have it here...so yeah...somewhere in the conversation, he mentioned that he prolly won't sleep tonight, just go out, then leave for the train and sleep there....but I wonder, who's he gonna go out with? anyone that's still here have exams...hmm....but I guess he's 19 then, which i will also be in 4 days...meh...can't say i'm that excited or anything...I guess it's an option now, but meh...
Oh, the post office Raine look alike IS in my CS Lab...lol...cause i saw him twice in my lab, but like, he was checking his email....hmm...so i wasn't sure if he was in the lab...but I saw him at the exam, one row in front of me, one column to the right...Mike was sitting 2 rows in front of me, one column to the left...hehe, but like, there was the huge space inbetween the row ahead of mine and his, cause it was in NatSci 1...so yeah...he seemed so calm...but he knows his stuff, so it was alright for him I guess...I left the exam like, 30 seconds after he did, I'm not sure if he saw me when he turned around to put on his jacket, but I had just asked the prof something about the Exam Code number (it didnt' have one, therefore everyone was writing the same exam), and handed it in....but yeah, he wasn't walking that far ahead of me, well, too far to say hi...but yeah....I crossed the street to go to the used bookstore, and he crossed too! i was so confused, I was like, whoa, where's he going? why isn't he going back to saugeen? I dunno, he went to SSC...prolly had to use the washroom...but yeah, I bought my Linear Algebra text book and the ACS novel...ugh....still need the other ACS book and the CS027b textbook....ugh...but anyway, I called Mike afterwards, and asked how he thought the exam was, but yeah.....more later, I have to turn off the laptop and finish packing and then head to Mississauga soon....so, yupers, l8z
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[b]Sunday, 14 December 2003[/b]
So I'm not sure what I'm going to exactly say to him on Tuesday....I had it all planned out, but like all other conversations I plan out, it never goes as planned....seriously, i HAVE to learn how to ask "how are you"....grr....but I asked other questions (not all relating to CS)...I feel so bad for him! He's leaving the next morning at 6am! omg! i thought Kalen leaving at 7:30 was bad enough, but 6?!?! wow....I dunno, if he really IS from Quebec, then....that's gonna also be a very long ride...:( I will try to ask him how long his train ride will be next time i talk to him, or on Tuesday (I plan to wish him luck 40 min before our exam) and then ask when he's gonna leave....then MAYBE we can somehow arrange to walk together...we will see...I dunno! like, I really like him, but why can't I talk to him like any other regular person? like, I guess it's much better than my previous situation with teddy, but, I wish it was less awkward and forceful when I talk to him on the phone. I need to ask him if he has ICQ or MSN...then get his ICQ or MSN....I wonder how I should bring it up...hmm....
lol, Amy came to Saugeen on Friday evening, and it took me like, half an hour to convince her to come, cause it was cold out (she called it a blizzard, but it really wasn't, cause I was walking in it and talking to her on my cell)....but yeah, I was like, if you come, u better come soon, cause I wanna eat dinner around 5ish, 5:30 ish, cause i think that's when he usually eats....hehe...but yeah, she came, and it was funny, like, as soon as her coat was off, she was like, ok, lets go and see who this guy is! lol...it was funny....and before we got to the caf, we saw his two of his friends carrying HUGE bags (looked like hockey goalie's bag), and i was gonna say hi to one of them (Rommel's cousin), but he was looking down...and so I didn't....and then after we passed each other, i was like, those are his friends...and she's like, that guy went to cawthra. i'm just like, WHAT??!?! the guy in the back was rommel's cousin, but the other guy, what?!??! she's like, I think i raced with him before, cuase I recognize him....so yeah...it was so weird....and then it was like, the next day, she finally thought that it mgiht've been someone she raced with in gr 7/8....omg...but still....so weird....HMMM....agh, connections....makes me think too much....like, he always looked kinda familiar to me, but I thought it was cause i saw him so much with him.
Anyway, my conversation with him today, i asked him about his hockey and if he played this weekend. he said no, but he played it on the computer....hehe... yeah, i think he likes it alot. gosh darnit, why don't i like sports?!??! grr...oh well....hehe....we listen to the same music, it's good! hehe...he also isn't on a team in London, apparently just intermural (intramural???) or something at the school...yup....hmm....and then i told him that it was good that he was involved with something...I was just in photography where i just kinda supervise and not acutally do any photogrpahy...lol...i'm such a geek...at least i didn't tell him that i also joined WIGDA - Web and Internet Graphic Design Association...lol...they never e-mailed me anythign! I'm so mad! I swear, if I paid $5 for just a piece of card, i'll be PISSED....grr....I wanted to make a webpage or something for something or other! it would've been fun! cause I really don't think I'm gonna try to keep changing my tripod page so it fits with all their ads and shit....agh...it's so annoying...but I was thinking that I could just direct it to geocities....hmm....
Oh yeah, he also says "shit" alot....lol....that's ok, at least that's ALL he says...or maybe he just doesn't wannna start swearing or whatever with someone he deosn't know that well....hmm....meh.... I really wanna ask him if he likes LP...
I'm so excited about the concert!!! EEE!!! OMG< I went to Masonville yesterday to get X-mas gifts and pick up the tickets, but guess what I forgot?!? THE LP TICKETS!!! I have SUCH a bad memory...so mad...oh well, I still have time to get it...I still hope I can return that ticket...:( I kinda wanna ask him if he likes LP first and if he's going to the concert and if not, if he wants to....and if likes them enough to sit on his own....hehe...yeah, i think alot about pointless stuff that likely won't happen...but yeah, I wouldn't mind sitting on my own at the LP concert if it's closer...but I can't just leave Hong! she paid for my ticket! (well, technically, I'm paying for it until she pays me back) and it's all about the bonding experience? ok...so yeah...I want to find someone to take that ticket, cause I'm SO scared they won't let me return it! they might not...cause it said it's non-refundable, and also, they prolly sold out now, and like, they won't take back a ticket....sighsigh.... >
Anyway, I should get back to CS.....so I can talk to Mike about it tonight/tomorrow...he said he'd start tongiht (probably) and then really really study tomorrow....
My tummy's making funny noises...:S
I had cookies and cream ice cream today for dessert...it was delicious. :D
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[b]Wednesday, 10 December 2003[/b]
Newly Created Blog ... supposed to save me time?
Hi all! So I just made a blog hoping that it will save me time...rather than typing in all the tags and everything...um...I'm not sure how i'm gonna do this though...because I'm not sure if i can put pics up and whatever....so if this doesn't work out, i'll just go back to my original format....um...but I'm gonna keep that one up...ish...whatever...we'll see.
So, I had my Calculus this morning, and I was supposed to get up at 7:15am, but like, I swear I only heard my alarm twice, and the second time, it was already 7:54!! oopsy!! oh well, I sitll had lots of time...well, not to study, but I ate and woke up Nach....she slept thru Damar's alarm clock..hehe, both of them slept thru it...oh well....I woke her up and she got there on time, that's all tha matters...anyway, yeah, I'm procrastinating now, I REALLY don't wanna do my fake comp sci studying...ugh...I took a nap...took me a really long time to fall asleep...then my alarm went off (i gave myself 1 hour for a nap)...and Ididn't wanna get up...so I just kinda lay there...for another half an hourish? then I got up and did random stuff on the net....ie: go to friendster, did some online quizes (which you can find in the "interesting facts" section of "about")...so yeah...haha! i got blue again! seriously! i don't change the answer! i just seem to be the colour blue!! hehe!! Anyway, yeah...um....
I guess that's it for now?
L8erz!
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