AHH! So i don't know what to do!! We have to hand in our "Intent to Register" forms by Feb 20th! that's in 9 days! effers! i really don't know what I want to do! see, before, I was thinking switch out of my ACS with concentration in CS, and into CS with MIT...but then I realised what a bitch that would be because I'd have to redo first year uni, because I don't have the MIT courses...and there's alotta writing in it, and like, if I don't even have time for CS and my other non writing courses, how will i have time to do programs and essays/?? right? but see, I wanted to do MIT because i wanted to try to get into the media productions or osmething or other like that....but I dont think I'll be able to get in anyway...
anyway, so like, then amy suggested for me to take CS for 3 years here, then go to college for my web stuff that i wanna do, and i was gonna do that, but then I'm just not sure about CS anymore because it's so hard! like, it's not htat I mind that it's hard, I mind if I FAIL! like, I handed in our first assn't for this term, and it is not completed because the program crashes after the first task it executes! ahh! so I don't know! but like, i should take what i like, right? cause it's not even like I'm good at anythign! so I cant' even do that! so...I don't know what to do!
but I was lookign into other schools to see what other options tehre are....Humber has a program for webdevelopment and that really interests me...but like, would I do that NEXT year??? cause I most likely missed the deadlines for applications...and then theres CS at Ryerson, and like, that seems alot more interesting than the CS that's offered at Western...so...I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!! HELP ME!!!! like, I want to continue with CS, but I don't even know if I can pass the first year! and if I can't, then I obviously have to do something else! but like...ahh! i don't wanna do ACS because of the econ...and like, i loked at the second year econ courses, and like, that just dones't appeal to me at ALL...SO...agh! effers!!!!! What am I to do?!?!
I'm supposed to be doing matrices right now...but I just can't get myself to do it until I know what I wanna do for programs! ahh!!!!! :evil: I'm going to go to the CS info session tonight at 7...if I do stay in CS, then at leats they can hopefully help me decide if i should stay in the old or go into the new academic choices...HMM....AHH!
Now I understand why in highschool, they made it easy by not giving us much choice in the first year...at the time, I was like, why would that make it easier? now I know why I HATE CHOICES!! why can't someone (with authority) just tell me what to do!?!?! Cause if I ef up, then I will only have myself to blame (if I choose what to do), and GRR! that just aggravates me! :cry:
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